Tantarica

on the replay

2012-02-01T11:40:00.002+07:00

sunshine

2012-01-28T14:35:00.000+07:00

Things I like:

It's a good day to have a tea time by cindy-tantarica featuring leather handbags

beauty to beast.

2012-01-25T20:22:00.001+07:00

Hi there.

I recently met my loved one Melvina Liantoro. I still remembered that both of us spend our Chinese New Year Eve over her place in the afternoon. Later on that day, we had a dinner over my house. During the time that I spent over her cozy bedroom, she showed me something that makes me think all over again about "beauty".

Each of us has a different types of perception of beauty. I try to imagine if I did a survey, asking people to define beauty, I think the result will definitely drive me crazy because each of us, just have our own idea about beauty. Right?

After watching the video, I just realize that some girls are too obsessed to become the other women that they saw in magazines/television/blogs/etc/etc and etc. Alright. To me, it is fine to seek for inspirations from different sources that are available to you. But. Yes, there is a but. But if that makes you into a psycho who search a consolation from trying to reconstruct your physical appearance, aren't that crazy?! In my opinion, it seems so wrong.

That are all the things I've watched. Girls that are not and never, feel satisfy and grateful enough of their own physical appearance. It is somehow stupid and useless. Well, I think there is no point to fix and try to beautify yourself in your own ways. Don't you think that you have one and the only factor that you can't control? It is the men' eyes. You will not be able to control on how they should define beauty. To you, you may think that you look pretty. How about them? They won't think the same way as what you think of yourself. That's the end of the story. Period.

Why to change yourself into morons?

Why do you keep hating yourself for what you truly are?

Be grateful.

Love yourself.

That's the key of "beauty". It flashes out through your eyes and your soul. Because to me, beauty does not lies on what you wear. It lies on your heart. It lies inside you, not what are the things on you...

much love.

Sky High

2012-01-25T16:30:00.002+07:00

Belgium, has come up with a brilliant and fascinating ideas for each of us to experience the beauty of this city in another different, daring and yet, classy ways. The idea of having a dinner in the sky is now situated in more than 30 countries. Yet, I still find the one in Belgium reflects a more classic and sophisticated style as compared to others. I do not is it just me or this city is supported with its classical European buildings style.

Dining in the sky by cindy-tantarica featuring flat heels

So Alexa.

2012-01-24T07:58:00.000+07:00

So Alexa (1) by cindy-tantarica on polyvore.com

The title itself pretty much explains what I'm going to type. Alexa Chung has been one of my all time favorite when it comes to fashion. Last night, I arrange all these inspirations sets that I think reflects a lot on her style. However, it does not stop right there because the objective of making all these collages is to give you some inspiration on what to wear. Remember, it does not essential for you to have all the precisely same items being used on these collages. Style does not need to be expensive all the time! x

So Alexa by cindy-tantarica featuring flat heels

I hope everyone of you enjoy all these posts. So, I have decided to update this blog as much as possible when I have the chance to do so. Keep reading. And please, do not mind to click on our ads located on the sidebar! Please help yours writer right here who needs it much! Thank you.

much love,

Cindy

Inspiration Post: Gossip Girl

2012-01-23T11:33:00.002+07:00

These two girls are definitely on the top of the list when it comes to fashion inspirators - Leighton Meester & Blake Lively. Whatever they are wearing, they pull it off, always! And because of that too, I always can't wait to watch the new episode of Gossip Girl. Whomever that never ever watch Gossip Girl, I personally suggest you to give it a try.

The Blake by cindy-tantarica featuring knit shorts

Inspiration post by cindy-tantarica featuring rope jewelry

the new Red.

2012-01-23T10:13:00.001+07:00

dress by M for Missoni; tops by modlocth.com;

skirt by Miumiu; Aaden ballet flats by Tory Burch;

Sandals by Tory Burch; Authentic Sling Bag by Hermes;

YSLGlass Ring; Alex Monroe feather ring;

Necklace by nOir;

The new RED by cindy-tantarica featuring leather skinny jeans

Hi there! Happy Chinese New Year to everyone who is celebrating it. I should be really honest that I, myself, am not that enthusiastic when it comes to CNY. However, I know for many out there, you guys will probably be so happy to have the chance to celebrate it. This year, I decide to stay in Singapore instead of going back to gather and celebrate with the whole big family. Anyway, let us skip that part. I come up with a page with regards on how I would style myself during CNY. Yes, I try to eliminate that red color as much as possible because, I do not think that 'red' will suit everyone. So there they goes my new 'red' to accompany me during this Chinese New Year festive!

Have fun, eat that steamboat, cookies and get fad, lads and laddies!

much love,

knock you down

2012-01-22T23:10:00.000+07:00

Happy days are finally here again! I have my four days off which gives me thissss awesome feeling! To sum up everything, my days have been way too awesome. I crave for the time to pass slower.

Happy Chinese New Year to everyone who celebrate this water dragon year. Good night

sway

2012-01-22T22:56:00.000+07:00

tops: shop at Singapore. Denim skirts by Guess.

KEEP CALM AND START DIETING

2012-01-20T11:49:00.000+07:00

Hi there! I finally manage to finish all my papers and that feeellllllllls so SO awesome. Yeah, you know, that feeling of not to worry every single night when you go to sleep. The feeling of being pressure free + carefree. The freakishly awesome life of being a growing up young adult!

Here goes the list that makes me goes "woohh" and "awhh" in front of my laptop. Let's keep calm, stop eating sweets and start dieting, for the sake of fashion.

2012-01-18T12:03:00.001+07:00

[can] [not] [wait] [for] [weekends] [to] [knock] [and] [wake] [me] [up] [in] [the] [morning]

today's blessings

2012-01-16T19:22:00.000+07:00

being selected as a student ambassador for Financial Accounting's Module
still breathing and typing this post
manage to finish today although it is a long and tiring day
had a good food although it is just plain veggie
manage to sweat under the hot scorching sun. Thanks for another -kgs
....
[to be continued]
[with another awesome blessings]

i should end it right here because i should get back on my statistics.

wish me luck xx

2012-01-15T20:12:00.000+07:00

I just can't wait to get this week over with, can't wait to finish up my last two papers. Praying hard to receive a flying colors grades. Will you wish me luck?

until then,

My generation.

2012-01-13T12:12:00.001+07:00

Hi readers!

So, how is your day? Aight. This sounds lame to start the post with. Anyway, time flies. It flies so fast that I have just realized that I'm in my week 12 of my semester 2 being a college students. In another upcoming 3 weeks, I will get all these stuff done and voila, I hope I am able to pass my 1st year with satisfying grades.

2012 has been quite tough for me. Days have been quite tough and tiring because I am going to face my finals, which is very soon. Yeah, I am sooo happy that I wish it comes quicker and therefore, I can get my ass off from the little red dot city to get some short and sweet getaway. However, what I heard from the starting from this 2012 is merely swears and curses from other people about their life. Seriously???! Sometimes I wonder why. Just a simple why on this earth some of these human beings despise their life that bad?

I don't know. I am no one to judge. However, just because you can't get the things that you have craved or wanted, your life is not that fcuked up, right? Or, perhaps you are late for your class, your life is not that fcuked up too! Right? Just because you fail your papers, you are not a failure. AND.. Your life is still not that fcuked up.

Serious. I can't imagine how often I have listened to all the complaints around me, be it in train, class, neighborhood, you name it. The list goes on. Here is the big deal, if you want to swear and blame God on your life, it is not fair, at all. To be honest, God does not cause you to be late in class. God does not cause you to fail your paper. So, who is the cause of that? It's you, yourself. You, who can't prioritize your time and activities. You, who do not put efforts in your academic studies, and so on. Then, why on earth do you blame and point your fingers to others? I guess some people are just too negative that they can't even open their physical eyes to observe all the good things around them. I wonder.

2012 is suppose to be another fresh start of the year for you. Perhaps you should have just sit down and think at the corner, observe what is going on in the world with all the wars, famine, disasters, bombings. Then, can you still consider your life as a fcked up life. This life is worth living. It's not as bad as what you have thought. Perhaps your chapter right here is a sad chapter, but it is not the ending of the story. You just haven't unfolded the pages yet. Until then, whenever you fall down, you need to get back up straight and strong. It's never too late, afterall!

ps. I am not trying to lecture but seriously, our generation should not be something like what you observed today.

never will I,

2012-01-07T18:39:00.003+07:00

The song that has been on the replay.

the count down

2011-12-31T15:16:00.001+07:00

So, 2012 will come and haunt you pretty soon, yeah. It will haunt those who believe that the world is ending pretty soon but definitely, not me. Please. Alright. How's your day so far? Mine is pretty boring, as always.

Here's few of my 2012 resolution:

I need to lose another 5kgs.
Be a good blogger. I know I often abandon this blog for quite some time. I think this resolution has been always on the list and yet, I don't know what is wrong with me that I keep procrastinating to update this blog. Oh well..
Travel more. Oh yeah, I think I have made a wrong choice to have spent my 2 weeks break right over here, and there you go, it supports me with a new 2012 resolution which is, do more outbound travelling!!
On bed at 10.30 pm at most. Yeah, I do not know why but since the holiday started, my bed time has always been above 00.00 pm which is not good at all.
(and to be continued on my agenda)..

Cheers to another fresh new start for our life tomorrow.

with love,

Cindy Tantarica

2011

2011-12-28T22:28:00.000+07:00

2011.

So far, I would still agree that it is the greatest year in my life. However, as it comes to an end, which is pretty soon, my days have been quite boring and yeah, not that memorable. I do not know. As far as I try not to complain, I am just so sick of people's not so pleasant behavior, non-sense excuses, childish actions and thoughts, all - the - crap - and - nonsense - thoughts- from people whom I believe should have behaved themselves in a far beyond mature stage, as compared to me. Alright, I am not trying to sound to be perfect either, but hey, the world is getting insane!!!!

I thought as it comes to an end, I will be having a so called, great ending of 2011. Oh well, eventually, my fingers definitely are still able to help me count all the great moments which happened during this last 2 weeks of 2011. I don't know. I think I seriously make a wrong decision to have stayed in Singapore during my short break. I should have gone home and enjoy every happy moments in life with my mom and dad. People are busy with work and so on. Sometime I wonder, should I just give up on those people I cared because truthfully, sometime it just does not make sense when they just keep giving you all the non-sense excuses, while you are trying to make them change their perspectives. I know it's hard but I think, it's time to move on with life because as what they said, life goes on.

sealed with deep thoughts,

that day,

2011-12-22T21:34:00.001+07:00

Film: Fujifilm 30mm

another perfect day back then, spent with my best girl ever. Can't wait to meet her next week. And still waiting for another miracles to get off from this city to meet the other best girl in hometown. I miss my duo clumsy and pretty girls.

Rewind.

2011-12-22T21:23:00.002+07:00

Film: Fujifilm 33mm

on the lists

2011-12-22T14:23:00.001+07:00

Hi!! I am finally on my 2 week short break. For the last few days, I have been getting my normal sleeping time again, which is so soooooo good for me. Anyways, since it's Christmas and oh well, let's hope mr.Santa Claus is using internet these days. Let's start the wishlist, shall we?

much love,
Cindy

bbbbbooored.

2011-12-04T19:54:00.001+07:00

hi. bye. i'm way too bored!

final 28

2011-12-03T22:47:00.001+07:00

hi december

I have been spinning around in my own world, lost in my own thoughts. So I wish, my last final 28 will be the best. I wish all the christmas parties slap me hard to wake me up from my lost world.

And every morning, I wake up to know how I miss setting up Christmas tree w my family.

And now, I sit down right here, connecting with my parents and granny + uncle via skype. Thanks skype because at least for this minute, I won't need to consume my food and wander alone without smile on my face. :')

good night.
credit to tumblr

be-you-nique.

2011-11-28T19:06:00.001+07:00

If I have come to a point to look back on how my life has changed, I will sit and stone without any words coming out from my mouth other than "wow".. If you are one of my loyal reader, I'm pretty sure that you notice the difference. Not that I am dying to hope others to notice as I change for the sake of myself and my future but yeah, I think those close ones might notice the differences..

Years ago, I'm so sure that I'm just that ordinary girl who choose to be the same as others. The girl who choose to shut every single thing to herself. The girl who does not own that courage to stand out and shine her lights. The girl that seems to be very childish at the same time. I think I will not be able to stop typing if I recalled how childish I was before..

As day changes to month, as years gone by, I am very lucky to be surrounded with those wise and lovable ones. Those adorable, sweet and caring beings who never even once fail to lecture me to be better. Those person who never gave up on me while others start turning their backs on me. Thanks to them whom I believe, are God's angels. Although sometime they may be too hard on me, that's what make me rise up, and learn.

Before, I used to be the girl who seems to fear on taking opportunities and chances. A girl who fear of trying and exploring the world. Yet, I am more than grateful to climb up from that hell of fears. I, then, still try to transform myself into a better 'me'. As 2011 is going to end pretty soon, looking back to what I have been through all along this year, I am so proud of myself that I have accomplished and checking off almost all my to do list. Thanks to all your sweet and motivating comments too! It truly brightens my day when I log into my blogger and read some sweet and caring comments

If by chance, you seem to be the girl who is acting like the 'old' me.. I believe there is nothing wrong with trying. There is nothing wrong with changes. Stepping out from our comfort zone may perhaps be something difficult but believe me, once you try on it, things will change too! I believe life will somehow sort things out for us. Yet, you just need to question yourself, whether do you dare to take the chances to experience something different? Well, I leave that up to your decision. But you'll see, how all the things will draw that smile on your face once you have tried on it. Again, there is nothing wrong with trying.

It's time for a change, isn't it? :)

much love,
Cindy
x

i do.

2011-11-28T18:56:00.001+07:00

During my stormy past 6 weeks, I was still able to catch myself in a flight to Jakarta, Indonesia which to me, is definitely a blessings to be able to get off from the little red dot city for awhile. It was a very short trip, 3 days to be exact. Gotten myself a very pampering room and surrounded with all the pretty bridesmaid were more than a blessings. I definitely enjoyed myself when I was back in Indonesia as I can be pampered like a queen! (ha-ha, nah, that sounds too much. I know). Anyways, the bride is my sister's best friend. Congratulations to the pretty, adorable, sweet bride. May your marriage be blessed abundantly by our Heavenly Father. Amen.

Anyway, I've been thinking to take myself for a photography short course during holiday. Now, that sounds 'something good'.

much love from Singapore,

Cindy

see how it changes your world.

2011-11-27T19:45:00.001+07:00

The reason why I have not been posting for past few weeks was because I think that I have been too weak to even share what is going on with my days. I am week in a sense that I can't even control my emotion. Perhaps I seem to be okay outside but deep inside, I keep questioning God about the things that are happening. To be honest, I had been complaining a lot these days.

This morning, it seems that God is talking to me through His message being delivered by our pastor. It was such a hard wake up call. I felt like I am being slapped right on my face at that time. Instead of working on and trying to talk to God, I have been too busy to keep complaining on every single thing that I forget I have my mighty God who are greater than all my problems. The video above was being showed to us this morning. And I realized, my words are powerful. Instead of spilling out positivity from my words, I keep telling negativity and complaining on things I dislike. I am soooo grateful that God still gives me chances to wake up and realize that I am wrong. So wrong.

So I do not want you to be in the same position like what I did for my past 6 weeks! I am sorry not to share w all of you and update this whole blog because my stormy days are controlling me way too much. However, no more. I am in this world not to let others to limit me of doing things nor will I let anyone to tell me that I am not able to do anything. So, if I can take that decision, I believe, so can you.

It's time for you to wake up and make a right decision. Change your WORD and see how it changes your WORLD.

good night.

much much love,

Cindy

keep calm, eat more macaroons with coffee.

2011-11-09T20:11:00.002+07:00

I know I have been MIA. I do not know what is wrong with the world especially the time. It fliesssss friggin fast. Anyway, whatever happens right now, I am trying so hard to catch up with every single thing.. Oh well, pictures are taken on Monday. Having sucha quality time with the family minus dad, mom and brother in law. What is better to be accompanied by lots of macaroons, tea and the mind relaxing ambience that I received in Checkers Brasserie? You know the answer.

so, until the next post that I do not even know when I can sign myself into this account again. goodbye. x

it's way too much.

2011-10-30T06:19:00.000+07:00

Random picture of mine to save the boring dead blog. Aight. I seriously am merely tired with the fact that my life is being haunted by deadlines. I have calendars everywhere, sticked on my study room, bedroom, everywhere - just to remind me to finish everything on time and to keep myself on the track. These days are way too much. I can't wait to end this ~~semester~~ whole three years being a polytechnic's student and move to other city. I want a better life. I want to spend more time w my loved ones. Fly me to the future, please.

60 days

2011-10-25T19:10:00.002+07:00

60 days to Christmas. Dear Santa, bring me the best gift before I end this year, alright? Love you.

all at once.

2011-10-25T18:39:00.001+07:00

One of those good day spent in city with the whole family, minus daddy and eldest sister.

last Saturday,

2011-10-22T20:28:00.000+07:00

I can say that I am trying to enjoy and live my life to the fullest every weekend. I never run out of things to be ticked off from my to do list. Frankly speaking, I am so tired of referring back to my agenda for every single thing I need to do. Nowadays, I just can't seem to do what I want. All I need to do is giving an all out performance. That's why, weekend seems to be my heavenly good days. However, I can see that since the starting of my new semester, those qualities time during weekends start to slip over. /sigh. Someone please help me to slower down the time. It flies too fast!

Impact Others.

2011-10-17T07:14:00.003+07:00

Hi there. How's life? It has been a little bit quiet over here and I think, I am such a bad blogger. I promise you all to update frequently. However, my hectic schedules and activities truly drag me far away from blogging..

My life has been good currently. Or, perhaps I should have said it has been great. As life is getting better, time flies extremely fast which is good. As far as I have ever lived in this world, 2011 has been the year where I accomplish and achieve a lot of things I want. I feel proud of myself because although I (sometime) keep rantings and complaining about life, I finally manage to be still in the hard storms. Now, I finally able to view life in different point of view.

Just in a blink of an eye, 2011 is going to end really soon. There is only two and a half month to enjoy 2011. I have done a lot this year. I have been through a lot this year. I have learned how to break down and not to forget, the most essential part, to rise up and held my head up high to face the problems. However, there is this thing in my mind that I carry on until today. From what I have done along this year, have I impacted others in a good way? I hope I had.

I don't know why I view life so different from the past Cindy. To me, I don't want to live life without a purpose. I hope my life drives me into something good. Oops, no, not my life, but my God. I hope He drives me to something good, something great. Not only I want to receive something good and great, but I also want to be something greattttttttttttt. Maybe I sound way too much or you think I'm a dreamer, but hey, nothing is wrong by being a dreamer. Keep dreaming and don't stop working it out. You should have this thing called "iPush" which means, I Pray Until Something Happens.

Last but not least, what have you done along this year? I wish you have done something good and great. Keep dreaming and praying. Not to forget, the working part. And may all the good things find its way to you. And may your life be blessings for others.

Have a good day.

with much love from your writer,

Cindy Tantarica

iSad

2011-10-06T18:39:00.000+07:00

06th November 2011, today is the day that we lost another geniuses in this world. Last year, it's Alexander McQueen's death. This morning, it's Steve Jobs. Both are genius. Both died in such an early age.

I know it's not a good news. Steve Jobs had changed our life. He is and always will be in our heart. And me, I will always be a fan of Apple. I will always be the fan of their simplicity and elegance. Today, iSad because Steve Jobs, the one iFavourite is now resting in iCloud. May his soul rests in peace forever by God's side.

Once again, iProud of #SteveJobs.

much love,

monsoon

2011-10-04T15:39:00.001+07:00

I spent my previous weekend at the beach with the girl from fashion for passion who is my very berry good and close friend. I think that I am beyond lucky because I can still meet my best friend, considering again we are pursuing our dreams in other country. I have been in a good friendship relationship with her for 3 years and definitely, I hope we can still be friend forever. She is my favourite companion because we never run out of things to discuss. Perhaps she is the sister that God fogot to give me.

Anyways, that day was one of those good days because we enjoyed ourselves so much. Not to forget the picture part, I snap a lot that day. They say, good things always come to an end. It's true. My good days are coming to an end. It's less than 24 hours to be very precise. New semester will start tomorrow at 8.30 am. I will get back my old life. Life with sleepless nights as I need to get my goals this time. Wish me luck peeps. And have a good day.

much love,
x.

i crave for ..

2011-10-03T19:44:00.001+07:00

Hello folks! So how's your day? I'm back to this little red dot city and the past few days were awesome. I kept roaming around the town and craving lots of things right now. Let's list out for what I've wanted. I shall now recall what I want and prioritize the one I need. [heavy sigh]

1. DIY Desk Calendar by Kikki K.

2. 2012 Leather Agenda by Kikki K.

I'm thinking or perhaps, [wanting] to grab one with brown leather. ;)

3. Oversized jumper from H&M

that's all for now.

wish you always be here ,

2011-10-03T19:26:00.001+07:00

those good, warm, kind-hearted, friendly folks that I wish to be here always.

something beautiful,

2011-10-03T19:21:00.000+07:00

there you go, my medium length hair for the present time. I get bored of my long and messy hair..

priceless.

2011-10-03T19:11:00.001+07:00

all the priceless moments back there when I stayed in hometown for approximately a month. Nothing beats the feeling of being home, being surrounded w those loved ones. More to come, much love from here,
x.
Cindy

fly me back home.

2011-10-03T18:45:00.000+07:00

/those things I currently crave to have. I would pay anything to fly back to my hometown like seriously. New semester will begin in less than 48 hours. I hope you enjoy your day. I apologize [too] for the random photographs above. It's one of the way to save [this] [dead] blog.

get lost

2011-09-26T12:48:00.003+07:00

I will be having a break until I reach Singapore. I still can't believe that my 28 pressure free days in hometown is coming to an end. I don't know whether I should be happy or whatever, I just don't feel like going back this fast. Time flies.

count down.

2011-09-23T19:53:00.000+07:00

one of those lazy Sunday afternoon..

perhaps there won't be tomorrow..

2011-09-22T19:44:00.003+07:00

wednesdayaffairs

2011-09-21T11:36:00.001+07:00

WHO WHAT WEAR / Mr.Newton

something true, something beautiful..

2011-09-21T10:39:00.000+07:00

"You say that you love the rain, but you open your umbrella when it rains. You say that you love the sun, but you find a shadow spot when the sun shines. You say that you love the wind, but you close your windows when wind blows. This is why I am afraid, you say that you love me too."

-William Shakespeare

Oprah A Biography by Kitty Kelley

2011-09-20T12:42:00.001+07:00

I have done reading Oprah A Biography. The book is fine but I am not going to recommend it to everyone. The first few page of the story is fine too but I don't know why, to my opinion, the stories just don't seem to pull it off. The flow of the story is not so organized. It made me thinking of questions that I wish by the end of the book, I'd get to know the answers. Poor me, I just don't get any.

Anyways, I am still wondering why the book revealed more to the negative sides of being Oprah Winfrey than the others. Or perhaps, that is the truth of living an Oprah Winfrey's life. So, it is being said that Oprah Winfrey just appeared to be a warm, kind-hearted and caring lady when she has the microphone on her hand. When she got it off, don't dream to face the warm and kind-hearted Oprah Winfrey.

However, salute still goes to Kitty Kelley as I think, she is bold enough to reveal every single dark secrets of Oprah.

My ratings:

Today's Genius Edition: WDUGT STREET STYLE

2011-09-20T10:29:00.000+07:00

Hello! So there will be weekly update about "Today's Genius Edition". Today's Genius is WDUGT STREET STYLE . The WDUGT stands for Where Did U Get That. When I first clicked onto the page, I directly love every single thing about it and, I hope, you do too! What to wait, you'd better click on the link and check the page out. Have fun and drop me what do you think about it, will you? x.

happily ever after still exists in this world..

2011-09-20T10:06:00.002+07:00

visit .happisis. - young, talented & creative young lady!

/has been on the replay

2011-09-20T09:49:00.000+07:00

how it feels to fly

2011-09-20T09:36:00.000+07:00

Pictures were taken last week before 2 of our friends, Jennifer and Christine went back [again] to Singapore. So, the 4 of us are living in Singapore but funny how hectic life is that we rarely have the time to meet up! One thing I despise the most living in Singapore is that time flies too fast.. However, I think I'm so lucky to be surrounded by people who change for a better reason instead of all the other way around! It was the kind of afternoon that you don't wish to end. It was kind of the meeting that you wish the time could have ticked itself slower and slower!

My 28 off days are soon going to end. It's not that I dislike going back to Singapore, but y'know, the feeling of leaving your hometown, saying goodbye [again], facing farewell [again], not knowing when to come back to your hometown [again], looking at those faces who sends you off to the airport, that is just too hard to bear with. /hmm..

8 days remaining.. I don't know whether I should be happy or not.

much love,
Cindy,
xx

there goes my baby,

2011-09-17T15:19:00.000+07:00

I'm dreaming of those lovely body figures. Yeah, the fact that I am in hometown and diet always needs to wait, starts to stress and scare me now. I've been gaining weight since I've landed in hometown. [not good]. /sighh. Anyways, pictures are all taken from tumblr .

Enjoy weekend and I hope today's post will give you some fashion inspirations! xxxxx!

is there any backspace button in life? ahh,i wish.

2011-09-16T09:49:00.000+07:00

It's another rainy morning. The air is cooling which makes me lazy to do anything. Many things are popping on my mind right now that I wish, how life would be easier if the 'backspace' / 'delete' button exist in our life. How would it be easy for us to just press the button and omit every sweet & sour memories that you wouldn't want to remember [ever] again. Fact is, it won't happen. /ugly truth.

Anyways, it's Friday night. What's your plan? I've been thinking to have a massive coffee drinking or perhaps, a girls' day out..

much love,

Cindy.

sing it to your loved ones..

2011-09-15T22:54:00.001+07:00

Sweet songs. To the lovely couples everywhere in the world, sing it to your loved ones. Tell them how words won't enough to express how much they mean to you. Tell your loved ones that you both could move the mountain hand in hand.. ;)

much love,

but.. why?

2011-09-15T21:42:00.001+07:00

weheartit

i've been questioning myself, "Dear God, why?"

voice of the heaven

2011-09-14T22:47:00.003+07:00

current fave!

deep down in my heart, there lies something that won't be unfold..

2011-09-14T22:35:00.003+07:00

weheartit.

Remember when the time, by coincidence, you heard your friends told you that there are certain things which are better to be left unsaid? Some time in life, I doubt that statement / argument. How on earth will you left things unsaid? However, now it comes to a perfect sense to me that.. It is partly true that certain things are better left unsaid. Certain things are better to be kept deep down by yourself. Now I learn, how to put a smile and chin up. Move forward without having to look back on everything. And I hope I do not make a wrong decision. If by any chance the destiny and God speaks the other way around, may that time be perfect cus for now, I will be just sitting and working on my life to a better stage and phase. x

p.s: the weather has been very lovely.

much love and, goodnight.

tell me, so you can read my mind?

2011-09-14T10:46:00.001+07:00

Stumbled upon Winny's and try out a personality quiz. So I am a typical of:

Your view on yourself:You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Oh well, what's yours? Click: http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

thinking of...

2011-09-14T09:14:00.002+07:00

I am sitting in my room, enjoying the morning bliss whilst looking at bunches of photograph attached near my surroundings. Yesterday was a great day. I did food marathon w one of my good old buddy. In fact, never cross my mind that our outing won't be boring 'cus to me, things change a lot. Moreover, I doubt myself to not being awkward when meeting someone after quite a long time. By long time, I mean, it has been such a long time since the last time we went out... And, fact is, sometime it's hard to catch up cuz you might not know what you need to say or, perhaps, afraid of the words that you're going to say.

So, shall we move on to what I've been thinking lately? As I am sitting and enjoying every single seconds in my hometown, you know, the idea of people change truly bothers me. I know this sounds boring because I have been emphasizing this all over the time, again and again. I woke up this morning and felt something is missing. The fact that my days have been filled with laughter and good old friends are lovely, but there is some missing puzzle that can't make this holiday to perfection. People change [i guess?]. The thing I hate is, why in such a short period of time? Why?

I [wish] those people could give me valid reasons on why they change.

I [wish] I could accept all those reasons without having to put a stupid "ooh and aahh" faces when listening to their rants / explanations.

I [wish] those people could truly give me a reasonable answers on why they would change

I [wish] those people could tell me how easy they could do, to just change and turn their back off.
I [wish] ...

yeah, that's the things that I've been wishing since all these times..Since the first time I realize that the fact we need to accept those people change and walk away from your life, does hurt us. I won't get any single answer to my questions. It's okay. As what I used to say, I get used to it. I am. These days, I [think] I just can't see how people value relationship amongst them with other people. Or perhaps, our value just differ between each other.

Or perhaps, they haven't been through a stage where being left by the person you love at most hurts so bad. It hurt as bad as being burned in hell, no? You decide.

and anywaysssss, i miss wearing my hot pants w stockings, oversized tank tops, sunglass. Kind of missing Singapore!! 14 days to go. x

much love,

Cindy.

for nothing is ever sincere in this world..

2011-09-10T19:50:00.000+07:00

one of those good days that I wish to spend with mom,pops and the rest of the family..

much love,

cindy

the owner of a 70,000 readers/day,

2011-09-09T15:26:00.003+07:00

i bet you know who he is. sit back and enjoy.

dear juliet,

2011-09-09T15:21:00.001+07:00

Hello! I have done watching Letters to Juliet and [again], I know that I'm soooo terribly late for this movie. Anyway, the movie had made me thinking that it would be very nice to have all the Juliet's assistants to reply a letter to you, yes? I don't know. Some time in life, we may face the dillema(s) and even your closed ones won't give the answers that you wish to get.

Ahh, love.. I don't have many words to say about this crazy little thing called love. As fas as I have tried, it ended up not as what I expect. Maybe it's not the time yet. Anyway, Letters to Juliet is worth to watch.

much love,

Cindy

to the shoe lovers around the universe,

2011-09-07T12:23:00.001+07:00

I am not really a shoe collector/freak/ (whatever you name it). As I am clicking and opening several tumblr sites, I find out something interesting. And, I think it's good to share with everyone.

Vogue Weekend is owned by a 19 years old girl from Dallas. Click on the tab "shoe porn" and bam!, you can do an QandA with her from A to Z about shoes. She provides links for you to do shoes shopping. Happy surfing, ladies! [p.s: although I'm not a shoe lover, but seriously, her pictures are simply unbearable to be reblogged!] hit the follow button! ;)

much love

street geniuses.

2011-09-07T11:51:00.000+07:00

They really pul it off. Very eye-pleasing from head to toe. Inspire much? You decide.

much love,
x.
source

classy ain't trashy.

2011-09-05T22:42:00.003+07:00

hi! The idea of this post is seriously too epic to be told but whatever, I should tell you what the story behind this post. The time when I touched down at my hometown, I saw numerous girls with make ups. I don't have any problems w/ girls who are aware of their looks. In fact, that is a good thing cus it proves that they are aware. And, they're trying to look good in front of anyone.

The thing that bothers me a lot about their make ups is, most of the girls in my hometown play with too many colors. It's either toooooo many colors on their faces or, tooooooo thick make ups! Seriously, it's okay wanting to look good but bear in mind that you wanna look good instead of, being clowns. /upssie(s).

I think that pretty clears explained why is this post available tonight. So I have got nothing to do, and have been thinking of what to post until, these thoughts came into my mind. Yeah, make up tips.

#1. Never ever play with too many colors in your face. Keep it simple. You won't want to go out and look like a clown. You're attracting people in whatever ways because you are just simply weird.

#2. Keep it natural. Play with natural and soft colors.

#3. If you'd want to play with daring colors, match it with brownish blush on and lipsticks. Therefore, you can still look good without having to be a clown in the crowd.

#4. Never (ever) put on a super thick make up. It won't make you look any better but instead, you look seriously awful. You seriously look like you just have had a plastic surgery with the lamest doctor ever!

#5. Last but not least, keep everything simple and classy but ain't trashy!

My eyes kind of hurt when I roam around the malls. I kind of missing Orchard Rd. for I can somehow feel a bit different and not, awkward. When you polish yourself with a bit fashion taste over here, people will simply stare at you from your head down to your toe. Seriously, I don't kill anyone, mister/mistress. /sigh.

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nighty night.

lullaby.

2011-09-04T22:26:00.001+07:00

goodnight ,x

midday hurrah

2011-09-04T22:19:00.001+07:00

It's pretty late in my hometown. It's 10+ pm and yet, I have just had the time to sit in my room and used the internet. If you truly notice, I did not update anything on Saturday where I supposed to start updating the #Saturday:loving lists again. Ahh, it's alright. There is no rule in my blog. My blog and my rules. :)

I have been waiting for my good old friend to upload the pictures and she finally did. (hihi). She is Orys from a round face girl. As what she mentioned on her blog, it has been sucha long time since the last time we met. I miss her loads and the time we spent on that Saturday is definitely not enough. I'm so looking forward to meet and have a deep conversation with her again.

ps. it's been pleasure to have such a friend like you *heart*

take a look on what we did on our Saturday afternoon. Click here

you won't get enough of these

2011-09-04T18:29:00.000+07:00

I just can't get enough of fashion things these days and hella yesh, on top of every single thing, I just seriously dying to have a skinny and healthy body. +1 is that bold pattern tank tops. So, what do you think? x .

ps. i am seriously grilled in my hometown, due to the weather. But yesh, have i told you that I chop off my hair? Wait for the next post. You'll see me with my new look! x

source

Spring 2011

2011-09-01T20:18:00.002+07:00

Tory Burch's collection for Spring 2011 FTW is seriously genius.

credits

done watching

2011-09-01T19:44:00.002+07:00

You could get your heart broken or... you could have the greatest love affair the world has ever known. But you're never gonna know unless you try.

The whole point of love is to put someone else's needs above your own

Did you know that 35 people try to jump off the Brooklyn Bridge each year, most because of broken hearts? I'll keep that in mind.

Hi! I have finally finished 2 movies today. They are both beautiful and great stories. However, I don't know why I love "When In Rome" more than "Definitely Maybe". You shall give it a try but I bet, many of you have ever watched the movies since it's quite some time. Anyway, I had a great day with parents today.

Talk to you later folks. I shall get back with my reading.

much love,

Cindy

061

2011-08-31T21:54:00.001+07:00

I hope your day is good. By that, I really wish that you had a reallly good day. Oh well, my hometown seems like a dead city due to the Eid Mubarak holidays. Most of the people are having a 1 week holiday and I think, many of them have gone overseas for the holiday.

Accepting that as a fact, I am very ecstatic. Road is nearly empty which means less traffic. You won't need to struggle a long time just to sit inside the car, stressing yourself because of the traffic jams. However, most of the restaurants are still close which made me have a less options to choose where to chill and eat.

Parents' plan for me today is to take me to check my blood pressure but apparently, everywhere is not available for me today. We ended up roaming around the road looking for foods (haha, that's my plan for being home again). Later on this morning, I tried to give one of my friend a message, asking her for a meeting and catching up session. To my surprise, she can make it and nothing feels better to meet your good old friend.

We ended up at one bistro named, 061 in my hometown. The place is quite peaceful or perhaps, it's just my luck to pay a visit when there's less people, due to the holiday mood. It's cozy. The fact that the restaurant offers to play all those jazz songs truly makes me feel comfortable to sit longer and enjoying the atmosphere. Well i guess things have changed a bit when I'm not around.

In the midst of our conversation, both of us realize how many things have changed. I'm glad to know that we are able to keep up with the pace. I can say time flies and it changed every of us, but I am very happy to know that many of us are moving along with the pace to be better ones. I am indeed very happy to know that all these times with the companion of the life happenings, are molding and shaping our ways of thinking to a more mature level.

Ahh, I really can't wait to have another catch up session w the girl from a round face girl . It's been a long time since the last time I met her. Seriously, I do not regret the decision of me being back home for this semester break.

good night folks.

much love,

Cindy

Chloe

2011-08-31T09:31:00.000+07:00

I just love the simplicity by Chloe for this whole collection. Hearted much!

A Nanny For Christmas

2011-08-31T08:20:00.000+07:00

One of my list on this semester break is to have time for me to watch movies and read a lot. Obviously, I am happy that I start doing all the things from my holiday's a must list. I start today by watching A Nanny For Christmas which makes me realize that apparently, we are 4 months away from Christmas. Half of me is being sad because I know the fact that I won't be celebrating it with my parents. Yeah I don't know, let's see how things work. I really hope that Santa will work his magic and therefore, perhaps parents would pay a visit to Singapore during December.

Anyway, after I have watched the movie, it really makes me think that I will need to spend more time with my family and put them on top of my every single list. You know, they say, whenever you encounter problems, your family will have the back ups for you. It seems true to me but I don't know how do you take that statement.

Before I end this post, I would love to greet all my Muslims friend all over the world: Happy Eid Mubarak. Enjoy the festive. x

much love,

Cindy

16 wishes

2011-08-30T23:01:00.000+07:00

Hi. It's 10.57 pm going to be eleven. I had a great day with mother and father today. In case I forget to mention on the previous post, I am currently in my hometown which is bazillionly a good thing!! Anyway, I have just watched 16 Wishes and I'm having another 41 movies on the waiting lists.

Go get your chance to watch 16 Wishes for those who haven't watched it yet. And seriously, I think I have a crush on Jay, the guy who's in the movie. night, earthlinks.x

Frankie

2011-08-30T14:19:00.000+07:00

hi! i'm lovin Frankie Magazine

everybody has a story

2011-08-30T14:18:00.000+07:00

As I was sitting and waiting for my soon to be brother in law to finish his work, I gave myself a wee time to read. The cover of this Australian fashion blog truly caught my attention, it's Frankie . Flashing through the paper, I truly knew that I am going to love the magazine. At the midst of my curiosity, I stop at one page. You saw the title - "everybody has a story".

That guy above, I did not know him. Never once did I heard his name. However, his story is amazingly beautiful and bold. To make it short, he is a guy who was being brought up in a Christian family. Their Christian family is different from those typical Christian family because they have their own nickname, or they call it the Mormons. The Mormons celebrates Christmas and any other Christian occasion but, they want to do it in their way. One day, Nelson's brother told him that he wanted to quit going to church because he is a gay. And eventually, after his family knew that, his brother is being sent far away from the family.

Growing up, Nelson is also a gay but he kept it to himself. He kept thinking whether to reveal the truth to his parents or perhaps, it's better to keep it as a secret. He was wondering what will his parents' feelings be if they knew that their another son was a gay (again). However, he made up a decision to tell his parents that apparently, he is a gay.

I don't know what are your views toward gays and lesbians or whatever it is. However, I mean, people nowadays have the tendency to just judge on others by using their own judgements. Like seriously, I am strongly against those kind of people. You may not know what had happened in their life because you are just strangers to them. But yet, you just have that courage to make judgements as if you are the God.

Even God give a second chance. Moreover, people change. So why do you keep judging people from time to time? It's time to reflect on ourselves.

;)

6 months.

2011-08-20T22:36:00.000+07:00

Hello.

After giving myself some time to refresh my mind, I really can't help myself with logging into blogger. I miss to blog a lot. I miss taking pictures and playing with the camera. I miss typing and sharing my thoughts over here. I know my blog is really dead. No pictures but full of words. Hold on dear. Another 6 days to endure with everything and there I go, I will have tons of refreshments and entertainments. That's what I have been telling myself for these past few days.

I still couldn't believe that 15 weeks of my freshmen year had just gone. I still remember the time I leave my hometown and how I feel heavy-hearted to do so. If you are my loyal reader, you may find me keep repeating the phrase "life's changed".. It is very true that my life has changed quite a lot and I believe, so have yours. For all these 6 months being 1000 miles away from home, I have learned a lot. I learn so much that I believe I won't have the chance to learn if I did choose to stay in my hometown.

I learn how to think wiser and more mature. I learn how to stand on my own feet even though I have a lot of helping hands. I learn how to smile over my problems. I learn how to be grateful because I know, compare to all those people out there, I am considered to be very lucky. I value education much more nowadays. I learn that success come from myself, my own effort. I learn what the meaning of true friendship is. I learn, i learn and i learn... However, the most valuable lesson that I won't forget is.. I learn to grow stronger in my God. I learn to put more faith in Him.

Life is pretty hectic, crazy or whatever things they/I have ever said, but now, I will definitely mention that, life is wonderful when I walk with God and all those awesome people I've met. Through all these times, I definitely will applaud all those haters,fakers and whatevers..

Without them, I won't learn how to forgive and forget.

Without them, I won't learn how to seek God and cry out to Him.

Without them, I won't learn how to be patience.

Without them, I won't learn what they called anger management.

Epic but it's true, without them I won't learn to KEEP CALM AND CARRY ON WITH LIFE.

There you go.. I won't hate anyone. They are part of this life. They are people God send in order to process and shape you and your personality. If people keep coming and bringing problems to your life, be grateful. Be grateful because you're in progress to be a better YOU. That's why, remember to shine. Remember to smile.

credit to weheartit.com

After all, being miles away from home isn't that bad at all.

good night,

fly me home.

2011-08-16T15:16:00.000+07:00

Hi! This will be short but not sweet!

Life has been _______, fill in the blanks by yourself. I have opened my eyes from 7+ this morning. Luckily, I am able to finish revising 1 whole Communication Practice today! I keep buying myself things to stay motivated and thanks goodness, it still works until now. I hope it will keep working its magic until my final week ends!

Oh yeah, I am soooo ready to be home that I really can't wait to sit for my finals like seriously. All those colouful wardrobes are ready. Camera has been checked off from the to buy list. All i need is to pack and wear that smile. Goodness, goodness, I can't stop feeling excited until now. Anyways, I really need to get back with studying. I will bomb this blog w lots of instax films pretty soon.

See you on the 26th! x

sadly, all the good things will eventually come to an end.

2011-08-08T20:10:00.000+07:00

08/08/2011.

It's 9.05 pm over here. I got a pretty tiring day. Oh well, eventually, it's not only a long and tiring day but also, month. I have mentioned earlier that August will be a very tough month for me. Finals are coming pretty soon.

As finals are coming real soon, it means that we're going to end our first 15week in our first semester. One is down, which is the Communication Module. I am very happy that me and my girls were able to carry out a good presentation just now. However, do you remember that every good things will come to an end? This is it. One module is down; one day is shortened. I can't have the same good old memories w them anymore. Yeah, up until now, I am very used to good byes. I am not that childish baby anymore. However, that awkward feelings in your heart will always.. remain the same.

Anyways, it's pretty late. I should jump into the shower and warm myself up. goodnights, earthlinks.x

cold.

2011-08-08T19:35:00.000+07:00

It's been quite cold for these few days. I wonder how are you doing out there? I miss you..

taking a break

2011-08-07T21:42:00.001+07:00

yeah. The title pretty much says it all. So, this week, next week are the most essential crucial whatever it is, it is the most important time in this first semester of college. My finals are just in 2 weeks time and I am half-prepared. Therefore, I need to take a break from blogging. I am gg to transform myself as a nerd for the remaining time. Until then, please be patient for the next post. Wish me luck, will you?

goodmorning

2011-08-06T09:48:00.000+07:00

Feel so energized to start the day although I know I need check off all my to-do lists. Anyway, I wish everyone a great weekends. x.

hold on, don't let go

2011-08-06T00:11:00.000+07:00

Funny how we've grown up just in one year time.
Funny how we've changed our way of thinking since we're miles away from home..
Funny how we've altered our conversation from all the high school dramas to the 'real' life..
Funny how time could change us just in a blink of eyes..

Looking back, I think I am truly grateful to have a good friend who is very supportive. I still can't believe that all over this time period, I can't relax as what I have experienced before. I used to see this girl every morning, and spend almost half of my day with her. Funny how things have changed because now, we even need to plan a meet up to catch up w life happenings in our own daily activities. The lucky thing that I need to be grateful until now is that, we still manage some time to blackberry messaged each other and give supports. I keep counting days and months to meet my other loved one in Indonesia. I miss her so much and always, wish both of these girls zillions of lucks and succeed in life..

"Cherish all the moments with your loved ones because you'll never know when God will take them away..."

much love,

always,

Cindy Tantarica

life lessons

2011-08-05T23:37:00.000+07:00

Often in life, they say that it has its own sweet and sour moments. Note that we're all the player in life.

You are the one to decide to change that sour moments into something sweets.

No matter how sour the lessons in this life give, it always have its own special lesson to teach us.

Have faith and,

stay strong.

much love,

Cindy Tantarica

thursday evening.

2011-08-04T18:18:00.001+07:00

Sitting in the middle of the cooling weather in Singapore somewhat makes me miss the warm feeling of being home. I remember all those times where I can hide under my blanket w cup of hot coffee/tea and all I did was just relaxing the most of the day.Life's changed.

Anyway,above are two of my current favourite songs. So, a friend of mine recommended and shared w me few awesome singers. I just directly fall in love w this one because I don't know why I feel calm when I listen to most of his songs esp. the first one.

To end this post, I am missing mother and home a lot.

much love, always

Cindy Tantarica

tough wednesday

2011-08-03T12:06:00.000+07:00

Hi there. It's Wednesday. I am currently in class and feeling terribly tired. Oh well, did I mention that I have just moved to a new house? Yes, now I have mentioned. I have just moved to a new environment which I prefer a lot better than the old ones. Having a longer sleeping time really helps me to get better, but again, new house is still in a messy conditions as anyone needs to work and me, I need to go to college from morning until mid day.

Anyway, I heart this current house a lot because of the vintage feelings that I can get. So, I think I will be heading to hunt some vintage home decorations to decorate my study room. Days and lessons are pretty good these days but not w all the people I face day by day,week by week, month by month.

Too many challenges these days which leads to all the mental and physical exhaustion. I guess I just need to endure until this end of month. I can't wait to pack everything and start my holiday in the place where I belong. Surrounded w all that peaceful feelings without having to worry all the chores I need to finish.

Time to end the post. Shall prepare myself for my presentation. Lots of pictures are coming soon since I purchased a new camera! x

Weekly Hearted

2011-07-30T11:32:00.001+07:00

Morning! I should not greet you w morning since it's 12.04 PM Singapore's time. However, yeah, I have just opened my eyes half an hour ago. I had a quite funny chat w this long time ago friend last night. But still, it's good to have a connection friend w a good old friend.

Vintage lovers/freaks, please kindly visit cakies . I bet that you'll have love at first sights esp. on her and her pretty lil daugthers. hearted much!

I have been loving this blog for quite some time. I love the way she takes picture. It's just soooo beautiful that I can't resist to spend 10 minutes each day on her blog. Visit For Me, For You.

Who doesn't know the great blog, The Sartorialist ? I seriously can't say not to check on his blog. His shots are always awesome!

Those people who are living in my hometown is very lucky. Welcome this beautiful young lady here because she has just opened her own bakery which is La Maison Patisserie. La Maison will give what the preferences of your cupcakes, macaroons, cakes. La Maison even has the Gâteau L'opéra! Visit the website itself. Don't forget the great chef behind all those beautiful cupcakes, macaroons, cakes and even the box itselfs! Visit Stella Lowis.

Last but not least, these are songs that I hope can brightened up your mood in this lovely weekend!

I always can't get enough of her voice- Pixie Lott.

It's wrap! So, stay tuned for the next hearted list! I hope you will be one of my fav! Enjoy weekend, everyone! xxxx

Heartbreaker.

2011-07-29T22:55:00.000+07:00

Hello there. I am supposed to write a weekend post and a special post about why I named this blog Tantarica. However, I think today was just not my day at all. My day was started w all the laughter I had w all my class. Later on today, things were getting worse and I kept holding on my tears until now. I am so tired that I don't have any words to say. I don't want to bother any of you about all these craps. I am just so tired.

Perhaps the things that I need at most for now is just a ticket for me to go back to Indonesia. Period. I don't know. All the lessons are fine over here. I just can't stand to face all the people over here. I am really fed up w their masks and everything. May God still surrounds me w all the patience and strength. Or else, maybe I shall just give up.

Goodnight.

Funny how people always take you for granted. I still wonder what is the point of being good and helpful since all I get in return is rantings and complaints instead of thank you. Again, what is the point? Pointless.

Cindy Tantarica

Miles Away..

2011-07-28T21:20:00.000+07:00

On Sunday, I did nothing much else than doing revision and start packing all my stuffs. As what I have mentioned, I am going to move out pretty soon. I hope this will last for quite a long time. Moving has been very tired. It's not about the packing thing but also, the unpacking part and sorting things again. Oh well, you can see from the picture that I am actually in the stage of lifeless, I guess. I can tell you that I live my life according to all my to do list. Therefore, I won't feel lonely.

Looking through the picture, I miss home a lot. I can tell you how peaceful is my life in Singapore. However, it's too peaceful that I miss my mother's voice. Her voice which usually wakes me up early in the morning. Now, all i hear is the tick tock sound of the clock.

Things are tough nowadays but I am very sure that bright future is waiting for me. :)

I hope tomorrow will bring me smiles on my face. I forget when is the last time I laugh happily and crazily.

Good night.

Put The Rythm On

2011-07-28T20:53:00.000+07:00

I can't tell you how busy I am these days. I am going to move out from my current place which is goood. I can't wait until Monday comes. I can't wait to decorate the new flat. I think that I will touch up the place with a bit vintage feelings. Ups, did I just mention a bit? Okay, you know how vintage freak I am. Let's see how the new flat turns out.

Anyways, I have been searching ideas from tumblr for my new room. Any suggestions? Before I end this post, I just want to share songs that I have played over and over again. Sit back and let's enjoy the night.

You're uhmazingly awesome.

2011-07-24T21:35:00.001+07:00

Hi there! I was doing blog marathon to all my favourite blogs and I have just found out that I was being awarded for this post. It seems that I need to write 10 facts about me,myself. Here we go, let's try. :)

#1.Since I move to Singapore, I never have enough time to sleep. And, i never run out of things to do which eventually, makes me really tired of l i f e. Life is now filled w assignments and.. presentation.

#2.I love to make new friends! It's pretty fun to know different people as you can learn more about their personalities and behaviours ;)

#3.I am really a big fans of food.

#4.Since my early teenage, I have always dreamed to live somewhere in Europe. I hope it will happen, one day..

#5.I always prioritize my God, family and best friends.

#6.Ever since the last broke up w my lover, I think I can predict how every relationship ends. Oh well, my feelings may not always be true. However, most of them are true. So yeah, it is kind of hard to change my mindset, i guess?

#7.I am find being alone as long as I have my books, camera and blackberry w me.

#8.I love to write and blog. However, looking back to point #1, I rarely find time to update this blog. I apologize

#9.I work so darn hard during weekdays until I get sick of it. I mean it.

#10. As much as I hate being a loner when I was in my hometown, I think now I am fine being a loner. Life in Singapore has pretty much changed me. Nowadays, it is just fine being alone. I am getting used to it. I am getting used to all the loneliness and silence.. ;)

Thanks NM and a glass of iced peach tea for the award.

xxxx
More updates soon.

I believe happiness will find its way..

2011-07-19T12:36:00.000+07:00

Hi there.

I am typing at 8.26am Singapore's time. How are you all? I hope everything was fine. Although mine was not pretty good but I try to chin up and smile cus I believe, I will walk through all these difficulties.

So yeah, I actually had a pretty good weekend last week. However, because of one people, the wall of happiness broke down and again, what do you expect when the walls of your happiness break down? Yeah I don't know why certain people can't move and carry on w life. Mine is tough and hard enough that sometime I get so pissed off when those people come and try to messed up mine.

I know in life, I should get through certain process. It hurts. It hurts to the core to be true. However, there is also no point to live in all the sadness and disappointment. True? Oh well, that is what I think. One guy told me that my way of thinking is naive and so on. I tell you, it's not naive. I just try to be positive cus I believe when i send out all the positivity vibe, that is what I will get in return.

I started to not give a care of whatever people say about me or what they try to judge me. Why? Yeah, you know, people change. People come and go. People move on. That's what I do. I don't wish to change but all these problems made me change. I learn and change to someone better. I wish you did though.. Last, stop living in the sadness cus I believe that one day, happiness will find its own way to reach us. Be patient. Have faith.

courtesy of weheartit

Anyways, HARRY POTTER: THE DEATHLY HALLOWS PART 2 IS FRIGGIN AWESOME. i just cry because of Harry Potter because it's way too cool and touching. : ) have a nice day.

Signing off,

Cindy

Sunshine

2011-07-15T12:26:00.000+07:00

Hi there!

It is finally weekend. I am currently in class, plugging my headset and enjoying songs. Yeah, I have just finished my works and waiting for meeting 3 to start. Anyway, this will be a very quick update. Imma go home from college, get all my chores done and maybe, Imma do photo hunting by myself. Oh wells, i hope this songs will cheer everyone's day.

ps Imma need a little companion : ( bored.

Signing off,

That Kind of Love.

2011-07-12T18:32:00.000+07:00

Hi there. My UT1 result is all published! I am quite happy to know that I score good in this first UT. However, I aim for a higher result for this UT 2 and the upcoming last UT before I end my semester.

Anyway, I miss my mom a lot.

If you see me as a strong and cheerful young lady, it's because of her. Behind of every thing I possess now, be it my personality, hard work, positive minded, and so on, it is because of my mother. I am so lucky to have her as my mother and I think, every of you will be very grateful to have a mother like yours too.

I feel life has changed a lot since I move here. From the childish me, I truly can feel and draw a conclusion what is the meaning of true and real life. I remember when mother told me, one day you will know what and how hard life will be. However, no matter how hard life will be, you just have no reason to give up since many others outside there, suffer much more than I do. True that. I can't hold my tears as I type this post. I feel super lonely at here but I know, behind every loneliness and hard working life over here, some day all my efforts will be paid.

My mother is my best friend and my best supporter. She is the best chef ever. She is the best doctor ever. She is the best personal consultant ever. She is the best baker ever. She is the best out of the best. She is and she will always be. No one will ever replace that position and no one could. I wonder how good will I be a mother one day. She is truly a life inspirator for me. No matter how hard this life brings its problems to her, she always find a reason to rely and put her faith in God.

Living thousand miles away from your family isn't easy, especially your parents. There are times when I am in train, thinking about them about how if something bad happen towards the one you loved the most. It ain't easy at all. Sometime, I nearly give up everything. But again, her messages always remind me to move on and work hard to achieve things I want.

My mother has taught me how to be strong and how to have faith in God. She has taught me how to cook and do all the house chores. My mother teaches me not to turn bitter when I encounter all the bad moments in life. She never fails to teach me to apply manner in every single things. Mother never fails to cheer me up when I am about to give up. She never fails drawing a smile on my face.

I should thank her for every lessons she has implemented to me since I was young. I know I shouldn't have cried right now cus she will just be very sad to know that. : ) I hope God will just take care of my parents. I am counting days to meet all my loved ones. Until then I think I shall work hard on my studies to draw a super wide smile on their faces + to make them proud.

Before I end this post, I truly have one thing I should say to every of you who are still living under the same roof with your parents. You guys are very lucky to have them. You guys are very lucky to wake up every morning and having the chance to greet and look at your parents' faces. I still can't get any valid reasons if I read any tweets from anyone cursing about their parents. To tell you the truth, you guys are super lucky. Unlike us, we live far away from our loved ones, worrying whether they are okay every seconds in our daily activities. Cherish the moments. You will never know when God will take away those people you loved. Just don't miss out all the chances because you know what, you guys are more than lucky!

Signing off,
x,
Cindy

Lundi En Musique

2011-07-11T12:23:00.001+07:00

Hi there!

It's Monday and now we are in the 2nd week of July already. Can you believe that? I have another 4 weeks remaining to finish my 1st semester here. I just can't believe that it has been 6 months I live here. Anyway, I hope none of you is having Monday blues!

I am currently in class. I will be facing exam in another 24hours which means tomorrow. Anyway, I will be just sharing songs which bring me to that moment, that moment when I crave so much to be home, to be in my favourite church, to be with all those loved ones. ;)

The video has been quite long. I am now recalling the time when me and my 2nd sis kept repeating the same song. You know that time, in our hometown, in our room. Time flies.

Again, it was one of the old song collection. I remember that time when I insisted to learn how to play this song on violin. I made it!

Ha-ha. I remember that time, it was my 2nd year in my high school where we were asked to do acapella for our test. Yeah, and this was the video where I learned how to sing acapella along with my 3 other girls. Epic. I can't forget that moment since we scored the highest in the class! ;) Since then, it became one of our favourite songs.

This song was when I had graduated from high school. It was 2 of my best girls' fav songs. All in a sudden, i don't know why, I fall for this songs. Yeah, that country feeling.

This one is epic too! I still remember my very first cover with my one of my best girl here, Qina! What surprise me more is the amount of 'like' button we got in Facebook. Ha-ha!

This is the song which always succeed helping me to climb up, chin up and stay strong.

Last, this song is the song which give me a wake up call. I am very blessed to have my father and mother. It's the song which wakes me up and recalls all the memories I had left in hometown.

In fact, I always start my day by listening to all those songs. They never fail drawing a smile on my face, although it is a small smile. Thanks to all those people who create all the sweet memories in life. True that they say each songs will bring you their own memories. I hope everyone will have a great week ahead.

Enchanting Indonesia 2011

2011-07-10T09:31:00.000+07:00

As long as I try to be a good blogger, I always can't update this blog every day with a single post. In fact, I just update this blog once a week or even once in every two weeks. I can't tell you how much I miss blogging, I am indeed missing blogging so much. Every time I feel like typing and posting, in the end, I see my reminder and end up, doing all the chores instead of blogging.

Anyway, I think enough about that. The reason why I did not manage to do blogging aside from my hectic lifestyle over here, is due to my UT 2 and also, Enchanting Indonesia. I am not going to talk further about UT since I know, it will bore you guys to death. Let's talk about something new, and something AWESOME!

Enchanting Indonesia is a showcase of my country which is, Indonesia (definitely! Even if I din type the Indonesia, you'll know what my country is from the event's name!). Yeah, in Enchanting Indonesia, you'll get to know more about Indonesia from its food, its province and most importantly, the variety of our cultures. Not to forget, the BATIK. In case you don't know what is batik, you will going to know after this post!. :)

Guys, this is what we called batik! The pictures from this onwards is the Fashion Show on Batik wardrobe.

+bonus: me with the Indonesia's Top Model! ;)

To be honest, it was quite a shame for me and a big wake up call when I participated in this event. All the old generation are putting so many efforts to conserve our traditional culture and history. However, as a youngster, I even do not have any idea about my own culture. I found myself to be very lucky to have the chance participating in Enchanting Indonesia. I learn quite a lot of things about Indonesia which apparently, interesting! :)

If you question yourself about what are those people having on their hands, I will tell you how awesome Enchanting Indonesia was. Enchanting Indonesia managed to distribute 600 of our traditional instrument which call Angklung. All the commitees, Liason Officer(s) and volunteers were helping out in distributing. Afterwards, there was a teaching session being held to teach all the guests on the spot! Awesome much? One word: DEFINITELY!

All the backstage crew including me! yayness! You can see how excited were us since we were being kept for the whole two days behind everything! However, the feeling when you know that the event was a total awesomeness is unbeatable!

All the heroes to the events and most importantly, our Indonesia! ;)
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To sum up everything, last week was a total AWESOMENESS. Although it was my first time joining Enchanting Indonesia, I felt that I had known all the people there for quite a long time. I love all the people since they are all very friendly and nice. Not to forget, thanks to the chances given to me that I could participate. It was a good thing to meet all the new people and new experiences. The next time you guys are in Singapore and heard about Enchanting Indonesia, DO pay a visit. I guarantee you that you will enjoy it. Promise,x!

Anyway, that's for today. I'll update again pretty soon.

Signing off,

Cindy

Things will be perfect in His time.

2011-06-30T22:18:00.001+07:00

Hi there!

Yeah, I even forget when is the last time I did blogging. Everytime I feel like blogging, I did type but.. I ended up saving the post and buried everything on the draft. : ) Perhaps something is better left unsaid and forgotten. Let's just don't bother others with all my rants and complaints.

Life has been indeed hectic. However, I try to enjoy and still, grateful of it. Although I keep breaking into pieces because of some problems in this life, but yeah, there's another point to be considered which is the part of growing up..

Here goes the post for everyone who feel pathetic and useless in life..

Life is tough, as always. Some people break down at some point. They cry,scream and curse. In time like that, they sometime blame themselves, others or even God. For me, it's unfair to blame others or God for all the difficulties in life. Even to blame yourself, it's a stupid thing to do. What is the point? We will never know what will happen tomorrow. We ain't God. Perhaps all the problems happen in order to make us grow stronger from time to time. We will never ever know that there are actually lots of good things and reasons behind all the aches in life.

One thing that I am very sure is.. from all the aches in life, we will eventually be a stronger and more mature being. Pains truly make people change but yeah, never ever turn bitter. Again, there is no point. We still have a long way to go in our lives. Therefore, until that time comes, forgive&forget. Move and carry on with life. You will never know what happen tomorrow. For every single day has its own surprises. Wear that smile on your face cus you know what? At the end of the day, everyone will be able to overcome the difficulties. Stay strong and have faith!

pictures credit to weheartit.com
Tschuss,

i ain't wanna say bye

2011-06-18T15:45:00.000+07:00

Hi there.

This previous Sunday, I spent hours of sharing stories with sister and her friend. We roamed around Singapore as if we were tourist. Oh well, we actually are. We are foreigners to this city. However, yes, thanks Singapore for treating us so good in your country. Although the lifestyle over here is hectic, I am still be grateful for numerous choices of entertainments during weekends.

Our first stop was the Food For Thoughts. I personally think the place is not as spacious as what I have thought. The decoration is simple and clean. One thing I like about this place is the design which involve some verses from the Bible. Next stop was Iluma. It was too crowded over there and in the end of the day, we ended up chilling at Gelare. Again, chatting, sharing and laughing out loud.

Ahh, time flies. Anne is leaving Singapore for Europe pretty soon. Sad, but yeah, it's life and I'm getting used to it.

Signing off,

Your little girl

2011-06-17T11:43:00.001+07:00

As I am typing this, I remember one of my friend.. Oh well,this song is dedicated to those daughters who keep staying strong and moving on though life is tough and hard, sometimes... Be strong, always. You know that you will always have the reason to stand still, chin up and be proud! God sees what you're doing and He will and definitely, reward you for the efforts. For you won't have a physical father by your side, but you will have to remember that, you'll always have the Heavenly Father forever.

Star Mile

2011-06-13T20:54:00.001+07:00

Hi there!

How was Monday? Mine was awesome. It was my first day of class again. Yet, I am so tired (again) because since 530am this morning, my brain has already started its chores - cook,study, study and study. I don't mind because i'm going to have dozens of fun since these are the last two understanding test. Oh well, I have just finished with my Organizational Behavior study, part of the business study.

One of my pastime nowadays is scanning through the pictures inside my iPhoto. You know, it's true. They say that the perfect memories will always be pictures because it won't change albeit the people inside it did. Funny how I saw pictures of years ago with those people who eventually decided to walk out of my life. Perhaps God has reasons for it and I hope you guys live a perfect life out there. I miss you,all.

These pictures were taken on my 19th birthday. Let's keep counting our years of friendship. I hope I will be surrounded by the same angels year to year, x.

anyways, the connection over here is acting like a turtle, slow and steady. Kay. I'll update again tmrrw.

Signing off,
x,

Through good and bad times..

2011-06-08T22:23:00.001+07:00

Dear girls,

The 6 days had been wonderful that words will fail to describe how grateful I am to have you both. Thank you for being such a good friend for all this time. Thank you for lending me a shoulder to cry when this life is being an old wicked witch. Thank you for having some time to listen to all of my nonsense, stupid and sometimes, childish rants. Thank you and thank you for being a great supporters and sisters.

It has been a great time to spend the 6 days with both of you. I should have thanked you guys again for the birthday dinner. At first I was a bit pissed when you both cancelled all the plans but yeah, thank goodness we can go out that day, spending time for dinner. Realize it or not, life has changed a lot. One thing that I won't want to miss ,will be the catch up session with both of you, esp. E since we're not in the same country :(

Dear E,

Be strong always when me and M are not around. You have to. There will be no other person who can pick themselves up and try to look forward if it wasn't you, yourself. Be strong always because we know that you can be. Smile, though your heart is aching. Through your smile, you will brighten someone's day.

In months time, I hope you can get into the university that you have choose. I hope you succeed in there. It is time to face the real world, the real people outside there. Though we are not physically there for you, you know that our prayers and supports always be with you. There will be time when you'll encounter difficulties but keep in mind that we're always be your pillar of strength, always.

When the time you have finally met new friends, I bet me and M won't mind, as long as you can take care yourself, as long as all the new friends will give good influence for you. As time flies, I bet all of us will have tons of new activities to do, one thing to keep in mind is just, you guys will always be the best friends of mine, forever.

M, thanks for being a good friend for all these times too. For being a good friend and also sister in Singapore, for always supporting and cheering me up. For always accompany me on the weekends just to relieve some stress. Thanks for everything. I hope you enjoy Penang and more time with E! Catch up soon in the little red dot city.x

Thank you for all the sweet memories for all these times. Thanks for being a place to lean on when I have no one. Thanks for being a place to share. Thanks for being angels on earth. Through good or bad times, we will always be best friends forever. Cross your heart? Take care E! I hope to be back next year. xxx.

"Two are better than one; because they have a good reward for their labour.
For if they fall, the one will lift up his fellow: but woe to him that is alone when he falleth;
for he hath not another to help him up."
Bible: Ecclesiastes

Happy Birthday To ME!

2011-06-05T00:04:00.001+07:00

19. Time flies. I just feel that my friends have just celebrated my birthday last year by giving surprises. I still remember that time when they woke me up with the surprises. As I am recalling the memories, it has been a year since that thing happens. I am still wondering how many things in my life have changed.

I am back in hometown. Three days before my birthday was my mother's. I miss her loads and I have decided to purchased the itinerary ticket. Yes, I am back home just for 6 days, better than none. I really miss all the feelings when I can sit here and relax. You don't have to be stressed by work & assignment. You can eat and sleep so well. The best thing is always to be surrounded by your lovelies. However, just in 6 days time, everything will be over. I will get back to my real life again where I should stand the pressure and heart pain because of missing everyone in hometown. Moreover, the hectic lifestyle where I almost give up.

I share a lot with mother and my beloved V! They are just the best thing that God has ever given to me. You know it feels so good when you are having a short break of the busy thing, then, you come home and have those persons to talk to. As I am typing this, I am actually holding back my tears. It is because I know I only have 4 days left to enjoy. Life, it's hard and tough but I ain't gonna giving up.

They tell me that I am 19. I have the last year of the so called "teenage year". Trying hard to recall everything, I think last year and this year birthday have their ups and downs. I know that I have complained and ranted for these past few months. Please do not count for me because I know it is just too much. As I am getting older, I feel that more burdens are being put on my shoulders. As always, more burdens, responsibilities and pressures.

The reality of getting old scares me. People tell me that I should cherish every moment in my life. I know, true that. However, it is just scary. Getting older means more and more responsibilities and challenges in life. The fact that I sometime suck on this issue, makes me weaker and weaker, i guess? Another thing is that my minds keep thinking of the future - what will I be? Some friends tell me that I may overthink about certain things. Some say that I am just 18 going to be 19 and I am not suppose to think that way. Is that true? I always try to think further than I should be. I don't know but I just don't want to end up being useless in this world.

Thanks God that He sends me my pillar of strength-my family and best friends. I don't know how many times have I break down in this world but there are still and always will be here for me. How lucky am I to have such a good family and best friends. However, I am still a human being. I made mistakes and I hurt people. I hate this part of me when sometime, or many times, I end up being stupid and just forget the idea to put myself in others' shoe. I should be really grateful to have them. I should be.

This year, I don't have many wishes like the other princess. I just want a normal life. I wish that as time goes by, I would grow older with more wisdom. If I could write to God, I would ask Him to give a longer life to both of my parents. You know, there is some time when you think of future, you'll wonder who will you spend your future with? I am 19 and my parents are on their early 50s. I just want them to be by my side when I have succeed. Without them, I am nothing. Without them, I am not me today. Without them, I won't be like this. I just want to be a better person from time to time.

hi. i'm the birthday girl. i feel awesome! ;)

Cheers! I will stay strong.
ps. thanks everyone for the birthday wishes. x

here goes the letter from every women' heart.

2011-06-04T08:02:00.001+07:00

I have just woke up. I slept very late last night because my minds keep wandering from one issue to the other one. Sometime I get so tired because whenever I have wanted to sleep so bad but my brain just does not let me. Mr.Brain keeps thinking about future. Sometime it is just too much until I can't hold back my tears.

Well, yesterday was truly a good day. Thanks to momma, daddy, maids and friends. However, at night, I was just about to sleep when I read a message. Many people told me that it is not worth to be thought but how can I? How can my friends not think about this irritating guy? I mean, dear boys/guys, I need to write a letter to you. Here goes the letter from every women' heart since we are all the same in your eyes..

Dear guys,

If you have wanted to chase this young woman for a long time, go and chase her. Cherish her in every thing that both of you have done. If you want to have a good relationship with her, and a definite one, I'll tell you to start loving her family be it her parents, sisters, brothers, her pets. All the thing that she loves. Be sure that you'll always be there whenever she breaks down. We don't need too many things. We just need you to give us a warm hug, wipe our tears and smile, telling us that everything will be fine when life is offering the most painful reality. Though it is not, with you, we can face every difficulties.

Never ever talks in a rude manner to us. True that, when people tells that women tends to use their feelings. Yes, we do. It is because we consider you as our other half. How on earth you won't cry if the one you loved so much is talking rude to you? We get angry whenever we feel tired. Tired as in we are staying strong for too long. We just can't take it anymore. We get angry because why on earth should all the craps happen in our life? However, deep inside, it hurts. It feels that your heart is being squeezed or milled by a huge truck.

Start building good memories when you're with her. Avoid bringing her to look back over her past. We struggle so much to forget about some bad things in our past. Why don't just walk together, and look to the future? Let's keep all the bad things inside the Pandora's box.

Write us love letter and you will make us blush. Sing us songs and you will blow our mind to the highest sky. Reach our hands. We can walk through the difficulties together. Because at the end of the day, we just want y o u to be here, sitting beside us. Therefore, we will always know that we have a shoulder to lean on, to cry on.

Sincerely,

us,

girls.